I didn’t make a big deal out of it, when I found out that I wasn’t going to be coaching this year. I had debated it originally, due to missing the playoffs last year being on vacation, but… I decided to continue coaching my son’s baseball team for as long as he plays; I selected the box when registering my son for the league. I didn’t hear anything, assuming all was well. The guy I’ve been coaching with forever asked me when the draft would be. I looked at the calendar, and thought… should be soon; we should be seeing an email with details. Well, we did get an email, but it was telling us which teams our sons were on. Huh? After some texts back and forth with the commissioner, I found out that there were not enough teams to go around; more coaches than teams available. That makes sense, but… where was the communication? How did the coaches get selected? When he told me he wasn’t aware that I wanted to coach, I was like what? I checked the box like I have every year; was I supposed to do something else? I wasn’t happy, but… whatever. My son will play for somebody else this year; I’ll get to watch. Funny thing… the commissioner that I was talking to is one of his coaches…
Would I miss lugging all the dusty equipment around to practices and games? Maybe not, but… I do miss it. See, here’s the problem: I can’t turn it off. I go to my son’s games now, and pace around. I did tell one of the coaches (not the commish) that I was able to do whatever, so I did coach 1st base a couple games already, took track of the game online, and on this day, ran the scoreboard on the field; thankfully, I still am involved to a degree. It’s not quite the same, but… it’ll have to do. Is my coaching career over? It very well could be; that makes me sad.
My son got another hit in the game, extending his hitting streak to 3 games; he’s been playing OK. Yet, he’s already saying he’s done with baseball after this year; I told him fine, but… how about we play the season out first? We have a lot to go. Plus, being on the low side of the age group, next year would mean he’s on the high part of it, which would be the last year he COULD play in this park league, so… to me, makes sense if he played at least one more year. We’ll see how that goes. But, it’s not about what I want… my 13 year old will have to start figuring out exactly what he wants. With 4 other sports going on, it wouldn’t be the end of the world without baseball, but… this is my favorite, hands down.
Wherever we go from here will be OK. Just kind of had that attitude since about a year ago; a lot of things just don’t seem to be that important any more. I will be there 110% like I always am, but I’m not going to be able to control everything, and that’s just fine with me.
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