Back to life, back to reality…
Monday the 15th was my first day back at work. It’s hard enough to come back to work after the weekend. The plan was to take off the week for my son’s Spring Break and get back to work on the 8th. I hate coming back to work after vacation. Getting back through all the emails, catching up on everything that has happened; sometimes it’s not too bad, it’s just the fact that I have to return to work; I think that’s what it is. Well, this did not go according to plan. With my Mom passing on the 6th, I took another week… obviously. So… here we are 2 weeks later, getting back to the J.O.B… I had just under 2,000 emails; I guess it’s not too bad… it could always be worse. Things had been pretty calm at work. Still, have to catch-up…
I was burning through my emails, trying to get to a good place on my first day back in the office. I think I tried to do too much; I need to be careful with that, more so now than ever. With everything going on with the day to day, I need to slow myself down sometimes; that’s in “normal” times. Well, now… yeah, I feel like my wick is really short; I can’t go, go, go like I was before this happened; I don’t really much want to either. Maybe I should have taken more days off? Some people from my job told me that exact thing. My wife told me to stay home too if I wanted to. What am I going to do? I have to get back to normal, right? Well, the word “normal” is loosely used at this point; let’s just call it the new normal. Yeah, I have to get moving. I can’t just sit around with my thoughts, not that by moving the thoughts are any less right now, but you know what I mean, right? Getting back to work, going through emails, etc, is part of my normal; that will remain part of my new normal as well… unless I just flat out quit. I guess that’s always an option, although I would need something to replace that. Ok, yeah, this will remain part of my new normal.
The same goes for my writing. It’s something I’ve always enjoyed doing, but now, being so far behind… yeah, I still want this to be part of my new normal as well, so… I need to go. I need to catch-up. And what better way to catch up than going through my feelings? Sorry for anyone who reads this, but this is MY therapy; read at your own risk… haha. Sitting here, writing, having my virtual therapy session with myself… it’s helpful, it really is. If anything, just organizing all those scrambled thoughts and feelings from the recent earthquake. I guess it’s good to document my feelings during this time in my life, although I’m guessing I’m not going to forget… not this.
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